DEAD END

I've been ranting and ranting about this for so long... same issue! same old shit! But I'm still trap. Can't pull myself and really turn my back then just go away!

I always tell to myself that I'm tired. I don't want to go on and just accept the fact that I was defeated. But the moment I move forward, their is a strong force that is taking be aback. So, I'm at step one again. Fooling myself that it is just fine. It's just ego anyways...

When will I learn my lesson? When will I be tough in my decision to really let it go! No more 100th chance, no more starting all over again. NO MORE!